Tragedies

THE TRAGEDY

I let out a scream after another thunder struck the now-grumbling ground. My heart hammered loudly in my chest as I instinctively covered my ears with my cold trembling hands. I slowly slid down from the trunk of the tree when the rain started to pour down as if the gates of the heaven were opened and the wind violently slapped my bare skin. I heard the trees rustle and the scurrying of the other living creatures around me but my thoughts began to drift away. Realization struck me as I felt hot, uneven breathing on my neck.

“Ayden!” My eyes widen as I shifted to him. His body was pale, blood soaked his slightly damp shirt and small cuts were visible on his face. How could this happen to us? I mean, he was a native of the Green Route Mountain yet how could his fellow villager betray him? Tears slowly formed in my eyes as guilt started to consume my existence. It was I who forced him to arrange a trip on this certain forest for the information about the ancient ruins that lay here were valuable for my thesis even though he said it was dangerous. It was I who was selfish, inconsiderate, impulsive and irrational. It was my fault that his life was put in stake.

As if reading my thoughts, he softly said: “It’s okay Nahara, no one should be blamed. They detested me ever since I was a child because I’m the Governor’s illegitimate son. I know they want to get rid of me but everything’s going to be fine. The light signal I just made surely alerted the village’s captain. Not all of them like my father anyway, I guess…” Even if he was already beaten, bruised and weakened for he defended me on the assassin who attacked minutes ago, he was still trying to comfort me. He wanted me to stay level-headed, focused and still have my guard up. His hand then reached up for my cheek and gently caressed it. The action somehow made my heart race and brought color to my face despite the raging rain. His eyelids began to droop but I knew he was struggling for his consciousness. My heart tightened with pity and desire that if I could, I’d definitely share his pain. “I’m sorry for dragging you into this mess. I shouldn’t have permitted you to go in the first place but… how can I say no to you?”

‘I should be the one apologizing’ but the words he said puzzled me and made me unable to voice out my apology though seconds later it dawned at me. Ayden was my best friend but I was no frigid, insensitive and innocent girl who wouldn’t notice the implication he meant by that. Blood run up my skin and I flushed despite the cold. “Just rest Ayden… I trust you, okay? If you said help’s going to be here soon, then I won’t worry.” I smiled and gathered him on my arms. He nuzzled on my chest and hoped that my body heat would be able to keep him warm at least, until the medics arrived. He was shivering and I cradled him as if he was a child. “Close your eyes Ayden. I’d be okay. There’s no harm anymore.” I cooed. “The rain’s just annoying.” I chuckled and his tensed shoulders relaxed. I kissed his close lids, brushed away strands of hair from his bleeding temple and rested my chin on top of his head. I could even smell the metallic coppery tang scent of the scarlet liquid that was gushing out of the laceration he acquired. It seemed unbelievable at first that a student like him could take down a hired killer. But he did and I was thankful as well as afraid because of the outcome; blood. I winced at the thought and sight of his bruise-filled body.

The downpour continued on as I close my eyes; I couldn’t bring myself to succumb on the happiness I should feel. I now knew that our feelings were mutual, but the circumstances made me anxious. How could I be capable of thinking such things when we’re still in the hands of a concrete devil? Tiredness then came on me and after minutes of pondering on when would help arrive, I fell asleep.

“Nahara… Wake up… Open your eyes…” A voice that sounded as if it came deep down the earth, called; a voice which belonged to the man I knew so well.

“Is that you Ayd? Are you okay?” I replied but it was odd that all I could see was plain black. “Where are you? Why can’t I see you?!” I was starting to get desperate as I tried to find myself. I felt blinded and tears were brimming in my eyes. “Answer me Ayd…”

“I’m so sorry Nahara but I need to go.”

“Go where?” Goosebumps began to resurface on my skin, though I couldn’t see, I could still feel.

“I’ll always be in your heart when you need me…” I tried to catch what my hands could reach but it was only air. The voice rung all around me and I began to sink into the oblivion, not knowing what to do. Then the voice started to fade until all I could hear were my own pleads and sobs then for so many times that day, everything stilled and there’s only one thing left; silence.

I was startled and as I open my eyes, the morning light greeted me accompanied by an eerie cold gush of wind. When I remembered the events of the previous night, I moved then stiffened. Ayden’s head fell on my lap and as I bent down, tears strolled down my cheeks. He was cold as ice, skin was pale that it appeared almost transparent and pulse, I heard not a single beat. I found myself shaking in terror and tightly hugging him. My heart was torn into intangible pieces and the pain in my chest never ceased. Then I heard footsteps approaching and I knew they were the rescuers. But it was too late. They were too late to save Ayden’s life. And before they could find us, my head throbbed, my vision blurred and I felt as if my soul was severed from my body.

‘Ayden…’ I thought then finally, I let the darkness carry away my sanity.

END

This is my work for our English class. Sigh... I had a hard time on this one since I really am not comfortable writing a short story. Errr.. In MS Word, this is 2 pages with double spacing work (because it should be 'double space'>.<) but I'm glad to know that I am capable of writing one. ^^

Anyway, my friends noticed that I like making stories with tragic endings and they keep on teasing me about that. Well, I just strongly believe that not all of us can have a 'happily ever after'. I'm just being realistic. >.<

Oopz! Got to go! Mama's been annoyed at me since this afternoon so I better not keep her waiting..

Ja!

^^

_esiuol_



"Why's everything so out of place today?"

When Pessimism Overtakes

As I sat in bed all alone, tears threatened to betray me. I bit my lower lip and hugged my shaking self, wrapping my arms on my body. Rocking back and forth, I tried to calm down and told myself words. Words of encouragement. Words that I though could help. But no, words weren't just enough. Those words left me hanging.

They left me hanging. All the things that came from their treacherous lips were hollow lies, filled with pretense and honey-coated damned promises.

Promises. Oh how they loved breaking their every word. They thought I hadn't known their inconspicuous plans and backstabbing. How could I ever trust them? Even told them my secrets? I was naive but naivety shouldn't be an excuse. Why could such stupidity exist inside me? Why should I always be the victim of such users?

Users. Those kind of people loiters around like garbage. And me, I was gullible and that was my mistake. They knew what my situation was; my parents had divorce yet instead of consoling me they took advantage of my weak state. How could they call themselves friends?!

Friends. Friendship. How simple it was to say: 'Let's be friends!' but how could I ever say that now if the so-called friendship scarred me? The very existence of that friendship was the reason I died. Dead in a sense that I couldn't feel any warmth. Every thing seemed so cold, so sleek that I always end up eating dust. Everyday passed passed by a heart achingly slow manner that I couldn't barely contain the feeling of dread. The thought of enduring another hour filled with anger and so much hatred was deliberately killing me.

Kill. If one look could inflict pain and could get one's life I would definitely glare at those who made me feel this way. But I was too weak, too drained to think anymore. My mind, unfortunately, contradicted and wouldn't stop its motions. All those bitter memories came crashing down as I finally gave in.

Giving in to this emotion, I felt betrayed. I was betrayed and even though I kept on denying it, I was scared. Really scared.

Then a stream of hot liquid strolled down my cheeks as my head touched the soft scented pillow.

I cried.

FINISH

Note: Pessimistic much? haha. Em pretty down tonigh so I wrote this... not that I have problems with my friends! O.o! I love them to bits! : D I'm just kind of pissed because of... ugh. Never mind.

^^

Louise

Whatta Day!

Sigh... It's almost 12 in the midnight! haha! And gawd I feel so tired... I'm not using my glasses. That's the reason why my head is aching like a nail being hammered furiously on this senseless brain of mine. Or maybe that's what I am convincing myself to believe.

Man! The day never seemed to end when I was in school this morning... till afternoon actually. I was late. (I really am not an early-riser! ) First thing in the morning after I arrived, panting like a thirsty rabid dog, I learned that...

"Louise! Practice! Hurry up!"

Jesus! So hell yeah I put on a smile and started burning fats.

Fast Forward...

We had TESTS afterward! Argh!! My head started to spin like I was in a ferris wheel... (I don't like riding a FERRIS WHEEL!) and my friends and I haven't had the chance to chat before going home. Em so disappointed!


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So here I am typing randomly on this blog. Saying what's on my mind so yeah random random stuffs. What comes on my head... pooof! There it goes... Oh! I am getting on my momi's nerves so gotta go.

Ja! G'night!


-Trinity Blood The Best-

Paalam Cory...

Cory Aquino. That name would be forever remembered. I'm currently watching the mass held for her and gawd.. I was teary-eyed! Of course I wasn't born when she was still the president and brought back the democracy on the country but the sincerity and love of the people... it was.. just so overwhelming. :( She was really one-of-a-kind.

Quotes About Love (got it from... forgot the site.)

"The hunger for love is much more difficult to remove than the hunger for bread."

- Mother Teresa



"Anyone can catch your eyes, but it takes someone special to catch your heart."

-Unknown Author



"The simple lack of her is more to me than other's presence." Edward Thomas



"We don't believe in rheumatism and true love until the first attack."

-Marie Ebner Von Eschenback



"Poetry spills from the cracks of a broken heart, but flows from one which is loved."

-Christopher Paul Rubero



(Also posted on tagged.)

The first quote was the one who really inspired me on making another ONESHOT and then... it evolved into a series of oneshots! hahaha! XD Wew! Exams are already coming! It's on Monday! Wohoo! Em pretty excited... not because of our examinations but it's because me and my cousins are going to watch Harry Potter on Sunday. O.O!

(I'm talking too fast again. Oh well...)

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It's rainin' rainin' oh crush-in crush-in

I can't help but wonder why do I feel tired, bored and sloth-ish everytime it rains. Hmmmm... Explanation? Anyone?




hahaha!



Anyway, Ohmigosh! I think I'm liking a certain guy on my friends list on tagged! O.o! That... is definitely a no-no-no for me. The reason is that he's.. I don't know! It just feel so wrong... yet so right? Geez... What am I thinking?

I SHOULD STOP. I SHOULD STOP. <-- MY CHANT.

I know it's just a crush and it's typical for a teenager to be infatuated. BUT! Ugh. I dunno why am I overly reacting when I found out about this stupid feeling. Yeah yeah em really weird sometimes... fussing about a little crush.

Sigh.

I've been busy today so maybe... just maybe that's the main cause of my mind's hyperactivity. Heh.




(Things I'm writing here are all random so expect total inconsistency of the topic. teehee.)


That's it for tonight. I really have a little leisure time since a lot of assignments are still waiting. :(


Love lots,
Louise

Edit Edit

As I write this entry, I'm listening to a tagalog version of Baby Girl by 2kiva. ^^ You know guys, I think I'm starting to appreciate tagalog rap songs like Patawarin, Huling Pagkakataon, Paglisan and Kahit na. Ever since my cousin introduced me to this kind of genre, that's also the same time I took a liking at it.


Anyway, I got sick last two or three days ago so I'm still feeling like 'crap' right now. Haha! But still I keep on editing my fics coz when I reread them, I kind of said: "OMG!" haha! Yeah my grammar sucks like hell. :P


I need to update! ugh.

^^

Fanfiction.net

It's been 2 years since I started reading and posting fics in this site and I really really glad right now because I found a couple of stories which I can relate into. I actually cried, mind you, so I know the author did a good job! Man! I felt like... I was just speechless and I couldn't even write a proper review! Imagine how paralized I seemed to be. >.< Oh well, I uber love fanfiction.net. So fanfiction fans out there check out that amazing site. ^^

Time to sleep! :)




Love lots,
Louise


God bless yah all peepz!

Hey! Hey!

Current Status: Checking my mails, fs and facebook account, waiting for Heroic Age to finish loading and writing this entry. lol! Multi-tasking ei? =)

Summer... April 09

I have other blogs on other sites but I rarely use them anymore. lolz! This kid is just too lazy and a sloth, almost all of the time? Dunno. Ahihihi! Anyway, after reading my friend's blog, (Hi Jen! hehe!) I became inspired (?), motivated (?) to write again. =)

Hmmm... Lemme think for a while. I guess the topic would be about my first part of summer, April 09 to be specific since May's just beginning. A lot of things happened the past month actually; my sister slipped and got a sling on her right arm while my mother was hospitalized coz of pneumonia. (Thank God she's alright. Doc said she needs a lot of rest and that's what she's doing right now. au.) Oh great, just great. Note the sarcasm, eh? So instead of having some savings this vacation, we spent most of our beloved peny in the hospital.Ugh. Though I liked staying there to avoid the massive heat of the sun. O.o! It was burnin' hot outside babe. Geez.. (is peny double 'n' or single? Sorry... em stupid. ^^) and oh, papa's back home and celebrated my brother's birthday with us. <-- one of the few events that I considered 'bearable' and 'worth-mentioning' in this blog. Believe me, I labeled myself as 'unlucky' and a 'cruel-fated' person since... well, I hate remembering those days so I'll just skip it. Hehehehe! Do you think I need to be a little more optimistic? Yeah? Okay. I'll try. Teehee.

The other things that bothered or rather annoyed me to hell was that all my plans were altered, change and some were not 'implemented', as my cousin described it. I just hate it. It morphed my oh-so-great-summer-09 into a -oh-so-dull-and-lifeless month. The days seemed to pass in a quick blur. Ugh. And the fact that I'm starting to be a looser, -raises a pitchfork saying- "I'm not a losser! Bohohooo!" -cries- O_O, makes my veins throb like a madman, ready to lunge forward and fight for my dearest dignity and pride. I LOATH YOU, YOU BASTARD! YOU KNOW HOW MUCH DAMAGE YOU CAUSED! RAWR! I'M GONNA FLAY YOU ALIVE AND BUTCHER YOUR DAMNED BODY!

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Just kidding man. You know who you are and I forgave you already. But! Don't you ever think that I'll forget what you did to me emotionally.

I'm a little bit insane so please don't laugh at me. Thank you.

And therefore I conclude (too Biology-ish eh?) that April was full of unexpected blood-boiling, brain-cracking, pulse-racing, skull-splitting, heart-racing, body-shaking etcetera etcetera month. Argh.

Take care of yourselves peepz.

Love lots,
Louise

Ja!

*I'm in a hurry!I'm in a hurry!I'm in a hurry!I'm in a hurry!I'm in a hurry!*

I read a manga with 'rape' content on it. I really guess that's what a person gets if she gives her whole trust to a total stranger. I felt bad for the girl at first but she's strong and I began to like her character.. hehe!

Anyway, as for me, I had been an insane plastic bitch these past few weeks. lolz! Just kidding.. But I think I've been suppressing what I felt about the recent hook up of my new found friend and my long-time crush...I know it was unrequited a long time ago and I told myself many times that I should quit having hopes for him but maybe when you like or even love someone, you do hope that he will and could return the romantic feeling you have for him. But I'm happy for them, of course, (I'm not being hypocrite, 'kay?) because they were both good friends of mine.

I kept smiling and encouraging myself that everything's gonna be okay and that I can move on... It's been months though and it damn hurts alright! I haven't told even my best friend about this...(I have a lot of reasons not to tell her so I kept it all within me.) but one of my close friend, a girl, and a boy whom I made friends with years ago knew about how I felt. I found comfort with them and they gave me advices several times already and I'm really grateful for that.

I don't want to pretend that I'm perfectly fine. I want to cry my eyes out. I want to tell them that I'm not the little girl they used to know, that my thoughts were not as innocent as before and my heart's been crushed. I want them to know how I cried every night for months and I grew from that experience.

But I guess...

I'm just a coward or I'm not simply ready for a change. But!... I'm pretty contented right now because I have friends even though they don't know my dilemma and they make my days worth living. I know I can get over this and I'm not just gonna try, I will recover from this pain.

I think I just need sufficient faith and trust to the Lord and... more understanding? haha! And prayers... yeah I need to pray a lot. hehe!

Oh well, examination's gonna start tomorrow so I need to go.

(^.^)

"how can I ever win your heart when I'm the looser from the start?"

LoUiSe